part 7: what memory are you grateful for?
no amount of happiness life has to offer me can compete with the happiness I felt when I was with her.
in many ways life seems to finally be beginning for me, I seem to be starting to live a healthier ''happier'' and most importantly more normal life...
everything is happening for me my home, my life, my health and soon probably my social life as well which btw has never been right.
but I can't help feeling sad because my life before this I was lonely and unemployed and depressed sure but I was happy in my own way with one particular person in my life and I understand that most will not understand but it is my cat.
when I was in the lowest of my depression I wanted to die not because I wanted life to end but mostly because I felt as I was a burden to everyone and also I wanted bad emotions to end, today I realise emotions are like plants you have to take care of them not ignore them.
anyways at that moment when I wanted to die, I was introduced to this wonderful person that happened to be a cat we adopted I named her Bogga after myself and in many ways I've put all my good qualities in her personality so everyone could finally have the Bogga they deserved ..no burden...
but I wasn't expecting that this wonderful kitty would save me from wanting to die, she made me feel loved,missed and appreciated.
and for her I've decided to try to give life another shot I moved out of my parent's place, focused on my mental health and am trying to get back in school.
and although this is all wonderful, i'm having difficulties being away from her, she's happy with my mom and shes got a lot of people in her life spoiling her and loving her.
it's just that I know I'm trying to live a normal life... I just miss her.
and she is my favourite memory that I am very grateful for.
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