part 11: what holiday are you grateful for?
my favourite holiday is Christmas.
it's such a wonderfully magical time, my family has never been very religious in the traditional way.
my mom has always said that she felt that Christmas time has nothing to do with Christianity but it's a celebration of lights.
for me, I like the way that on Christmas day everything is so quiet so white and so peaceful feels like a vacation from worries and fears and violence in the world.
peace on earth for one day a year.
we have lots of traditions that I would like to keep alive but our family feels like its shrinking to me.
my sisters have a family of their own and so does my mom now and even though my parents are good friends I would like it to be easier to spend time with both of them and their partner's at the same time and place
I've always wanted us to be able to be together as a family I don't understand why that has to be so difficult why is it so hard for us all to be together I know they all have a life, friends of their own family but they are my only family and they are my life, since i was a child it has been sort of easy to feel neglected and unwanted even though that's not the intention at all but in the end I always seem to end up alone...
I just wish that life could be a little easier.
I love Christmas it's my favourite time of year I think maybe I like it so much because I always get nostalgia flashback feelings kind of like feeling the exact same feeling I felt before ...in a way time travelling if that makes sense.
Christmas time is a happy time it makes me feel good in a place where I need it, in my heart... I feel like the Grinch:´) my heart grows on Christmas time, not in a way that's generosity or sympathy because I have plenty of that all the time what I feel on Christmas is something that I need in my heart rest of the year and that is not feeling alone.
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